What I Wish...

For every day I live to see I have at least one moment where I say to myself or whomever is listening "I Wish...", what I wish for is different every time and sometimes there's more than one wish on my list and yes they are all things that I really dont need to survive or even be happy. I can live without those things that make life easy...hell, I do it every day. What I wished for today was something I hadnt ever remembered wishing for before...I wished for one day where I wasnt afraid...fear is something that can and does hold us back, it keeps us tied up in knots wondering when the worst is coming or whats waiting for us around the next corner. I'm afraid every day that I wont be here when my husband needs me most, that I wont be able to provide what my grandchildren need, that I wont be able to keep peace in the family, and most importantly, that I wont be able to be me, have my own opinions and desires that define me.
You see, I have an opinion on most everything, and believe me its not a popular one in many cases, but its mine. I have boundaries that I wont compromise no matter what and every day I am forced to hold those lines because of someone trying to push their opionions through; I wanna be bold and brave and I wanna be loud and heard...and wanting that makes it harder to stand my ground.
I guess in the end what I wish for is for the courage to stand up when the world says sit down, the ability to hold firm to my beliefs and opinions and stand my ground when challenged, but most of all I wish to be fearless...
What do you wish for?